Saturday, July 7, 2007

My kurara


i'm just in love with this jap gurl!..she have personality, gorgeous, a kick boxing insructor etc. She can kick my ass anytime she want! here are some pictures;
 

Thursday, June 7, 2007

J-Love is so hot

My honesty and Your honesty

ola people! i have been thinking about this for quite a while now. I think that i can be honest to someone else. But that honesty is not mutual. I keep on thinking that i must change myself. well, i believe the Golden rule and i tried to apply it everyday in my life. an example of honesty in my life that is not mutual is for example, if i say to a friend (they have to ask me first to give them my opinion) "oh that clothes doesnt suits u"...n when they say the same thing to me..i can feel the uneasiness inside of me.
But, i will ask someone if the things that i have said offends them in anyway, some of my friends say that my words are encouraging for them. i felt really honoured when theres anyone out there who really appreciate my honesty.
Sometime i cried when someone are being truly honest too me. i feel that they're playing with my self confidence big time. well depends, if they say like "banyaknye jerawat kat dahi kau tu"..i will seriously not get offended. But if they say things like "u can't do this, u can't do that, its wrong" and i know that they are just being honest...i will cry. i think what's wrong is me, not them. will they get offended if i say those things to them? maybe not. I havent reach that level where i can accept all of other people's opinion towards me.
So, whats next? well i have to say that i will have my limit in being honest. i will not lie. that is my principal. i will just say 'tak tau' and i know it will not happen overnight but i will try. and i will try to boost my friend's self confident by saying encouraging stuff like "u can do it! i know u". at the same time, i will try to accept more of other people's opinion towards me. how u might ask?..well i dont know..maybe u can give me ur opinion on how can i accept more of other people's crticsm on me.
i believe that human are not static, they can be better or worse, and i hope by changing this bad behaviour of mine i hope i can be a better person.


PS: No sarcasm involved in writing this article

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Honesty and sensitivity

when i first came here in Sydney, my friends we're suprise how straight forward i am towards them. one thing about me is that i like to speak out what i feel without noticing the effects of every single words that i have said to my friends. one of my friend, told me few months back that u can't be straight forward in everything i do. well honestly, i think it is better to tell or discuss with someone about the things that makes u uncomfortable about them rather than talk behind their back.
my sensitivity sucks big time. i don't care about what other people think about me, but that is just who i am. Theres a lot of things in my past that build that attitude towards other people. So, it is not easy to change that like a switch of a button. there are a lot of positive things that came out from this attitude, i am happy most of the time, i dont have a low selfesteem about my image and etc. the negative side is that, i dont have a chance to improve myself because i dont have feedbacks from other people or i refuse to, i sometime deviate from what i use to belief in, and i dont have a lot of friends because i just dont care.
i have a friend who told me about what other people say about him that makes him uncomfortable with himself. and i said to him " u r big enough to brush it off". hours after that(thats how slow my slow my sensitivity came into effect), i feel bad about what i said. I should comfort him more. there traumatising things from his past that makes him the way he is. i should have not act like i know how to handle all things. I am not him. i dont know what he had been through all his life. n i am sorry.

Monday, April 16, 2007

updates...

*i forgot to share with you guys that i have started to exercise again...yay!..for the past 4 days that is. my exercise regime consists of my big buns and my flabby-full-of-fat abs.
*i haven't finish my machining assignment yet.
*i'm officially fakir miskin...so give ur 'zakat' to me.
*was a very long day in uni
*accidentally wearing the same bag as Muhammad in Uni just now(yeah...the fitness first bag)
*still disagree with the fact that the price of fish n chips in uni increased by 4 dollars for the past one year. i hate vsu!
*n yeah..that awkward moment with John, Joy and Jason(oh..i should call them The J's) during lunch now. Thank God, John break the slence by asking Joy "so...is ur housemate in Japan now?". hehehe.
that's all the updates for today. keep on reading my blog because maybe u'll miss my biggest secret ever!

Saturday, April 14, 2007

what do i think of myself

hehehe...i have nothing better to do..so here it is:
1. I'm funny, i have been told that i can be a good tv presenter (i want to work in MTV) since i know how to make people laugh. do u agree with this?
2. i'm knowledgeable, every morning its my habit to read current news from Malaysia and from around the world, i love browsing through wikipedia and skyscrapercity. i hope it would do me good during my interview with petronas next year.
3. i'm into politics..ask faiz about it...people are just annoyed when 2 of us talk about politics.
4. into himself, yes...i think i'm gorgeous.
5. unmotivated...for this year that is..but trying hard to change it
6. i'm in love...no need to elaborate
7. talkative...very..
8. i like awkward moments..its funny.
9. i like to stay at home rather than travelling around.
10. i have a small circle of friends. would love to expand it.
11. i don't like argument...sometimes i cried because of it..if the argument is to intense.
12. Proud to be a Sarawakian
13. I'm not racist.

ok...Thats all for now...do u agree that i am all of the above

Malas

i hate it...setiap kali nak buat sesuatu mesti bersemangat giler...lepas tu 5 minutes after that...malas lagi!...i want my sem 2 second year motivation back! ok...nasiblah hari ni dah buat balik semester planner...it was 5 weeks over due! Kazar, ingat masa itu emas! Anyways, i'm going to discuss the CNC code with Muhammad my lovely roomate later. Chiowz

Friday, April 13, 2007

reaksi terhadap kenyataan PAS wilayah persekutuan tentang artis lembut


Selebriti lembut pengaruhi remaja masakini, kata Pemuda PAS WP
Apr 12, 07 5:46pm



Dewan Pemuda PAS Wilayah Persekutuan (DPPWP) bersetuju dengan pandangan Anggota Exco Kerajaan Negeri Terengganu, Datuk Rosol Wahid bahawa selebriti lembut telah banyak mempengaruhi para remaja masakini. “Media massa, terutamanya saluran televisyen dan radio telah banyak mempromosikan golongan ini sama ada sebagai pengacara, artis, atau pesonaliti media,” kata Ketua Penerangan DPPWP Herman Samsudeen. Katanya, mereka telah diberikan ruang seluas-luasnya untuk menampilkan bakat dan pesonaliti lembut mereka yang kadangkala seperti dibuat-buat. “DPPWP melihat bahawa Kerajaan BN Negeri Terengganu turut bersama dengan mereka bagi mempromosikan golongan ini,” katanya.

Herman mengulas laporan media hari ini yang menyebut Terengganu kini mengalami masalah peningkatan golongan 'pondan' atau lebih lembut lagi disebut sebagai 'mak nyah. Laporan akhbar Kosmo hari ini, memetik pengakuan rasmi Rosol yang juga Pengerusi Jawatankuasa Pembangunan Islam Hadhari dan Kebajikan Terengganu mengenai peningkatan gejala yang tidak sihat ini di negeri itu. Herman mendakwa, program perkampungan Islam Hadhari di Terengganu sebenarnya satu penipuan massa yang dilakukan oleh kerajaan negeri bagi memikat rakyat. “Hakikatnya, program tersebut jika dilakukan di negeri lain...ianya dipanggil Karnival Jom Heboh yang dahulunya dikenali sebagai Sure Heboh.
Di sinilah kerajaan negeri bersekongkol dengan pihak media dan artis bagi mempromosikan selebriti lembut ini seterusnya merosakan belia dan remaja Terengganu,” tegasnya. Merebak ke Pantai Timur Bagi DPPWP, katanya, fenomena mak nyah ini bukanlah sesuatu yang luar biasa kerana ia sudah lama bertapak di Kuala Lumpur, sebuah negeri yang ditadbir oleh BN. Kini, tegas Herman, kudis dan kejelekan itu telah merebak ke Pantai Timur melalui Gelombang Biru. “Dahulu rakyat Terengganu bangga dengan perkataan Darul Iman, kini mereka harus malu kerana kesilapan mereka yang memilih pemimpin yang lemah dan banyak membawa kemaksiatan ke negeri tersebut,” tambahnya. Oleh itu, kata Herman, DPPWP menyeru rakyat Terengganu supaya bangkit sebelum “anak-anak anda juga menjadi mak nyah, (dan) seterusnya memalukan seluruh kaum kerabat dan suku sakat anda'. “DPPWP sedar bahawa memang ada manusia yang dilahirkan dengan jiwa yang lembut walaupun hakikatnya mereka itu adalah lelaki. tetapi mereka seharusnya memahami fitrah semulajadi dan tidak terlalu mengikutkan naluri serta nafsu semata-mata,” katanya. Tindakan memenjarakan golongan ini juga gagal menyelesaikan masalah tersebut dan oleh itu, sesuatu perlu dilakukan untuk membantu mereka. “DPPWP yakin PAS Terengganu mampu melakukannya. DPPWP berharap rakyat Terengganu belajar daripada pengalaman ini, dan bangkit membuat perubahan dalam pilihanraya umum akan datang,” katanya.
pendapat saya: first of all, i'm really mad when i read this article. its attacking people for who they are. labelling them as unhealthy aka someone with a disease. Ok, PAS, thats y u r irrelevant nowadays, highly conservative and extreme. This people u called 'mak nyah' never attack u personally, and y did u attack them? What if i publish my opinion by saying in a newspaper saying that PAS is irrelevant, unhealthy and f*&ckingly conservative?...PAS...u will never get my vote n the young malaysian's vote in the upcoming election.
why do the current media choose this 'mak nyah's n 'lembut's as a presenter or pengacara? This is because of their personality like, outgoing, funny, extroverted etc. And Of course, any media company will not be stupid enough to hire anyone with a 'serban' or someone with a 'tudung labuh' talking gossips about artists. it would be weird isn't it?(and dont tell me that we can't touch this issue because it's sensitive, well..its not..at least in the 60's and 70's).
PAS and Rosol, people are now more mature than u think. its their freedom to choose what they want to be with a certain limits. N i believe that there's a limit to everything that we do. we just can't have a total freedom. the problem with them (PAS and Rosol) is they sets the limits too low where people just can't breath under this limits. U can't do this ... u can't do that..yada yada yada..n the worst thing of all is they put their personal opinions under the name of Islam! That's y people will just follow what they say because majority of people especially citizens of Malaysia can't criticise them because the word 'Islam' is there. Ur not Rasul or Nabi where u can't be criticise.
and the last thing, 'mak nyah' and 'lembut' is a part of the malaysian society for a very long time. And extremism is not part of any religion or society in this world. So, get out from Malaysia since u r not part of Malaysia..shusssshhhhh.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

United Nations Declaration of Human Rights(Plese know your rights people!)

Article 1.
All human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights.They are endowed with reason and conscience and should act towards one another in a spirit of brotherhood.

Article 2.
Everyone is entitled to all the rights and freedoms set forth in this Declaration, without distinction of any kind, such as race, colour, sex, language, religion, political or other opinion, national or social origin, property, birth or other status. Furthermore, no distinction shall be made on the basis of the political, jurisdictional or international status of the country or territory to which a person belongs, whether it be independent, trust, non-self-governing or under any other limitation of sovereignty.

Article 3.
Everyone has the right to life, liberty and security of person.

Article 4.
No one shall be held in slavery or servitude; slavery and the slave trade shall be prohibited in all their forms.

Article 5.
No one shall be subjected to torture or to cruel, inhuman or degrading treatment or punishment.

Article 6.
Everyone has the right to recognition everywhere as a person before the law.

Article 7.
All are equal before the law and are entitled without any discrimination to equal protection of the law. All are entitled to equal protection against any discrimination in violation of this Declaration and against any incitement to such discrimination.

Article 8.
Everyone has the right to an effective remedy by the competent national tribunals for acts violating the fundamental rights granted him by the constitution or by law.

Article 9.
No one shall be subjected to arbitrary arrest, detention or exile.

Article 10.
Everyone is entitled in full equality to a fair and public hearing by an independent and impartial tribunal, in the determination of his rights and obligations and of any criminal charge against him.

Article 11.
(1) Everyone charged with a penal offence has the right to be presumed innocent until proved guilty according to law in a public trial at which he has had all the guarantees necessary for his defence.
(2) No one shall be held guilty of any penal offence on account of any act or omission which did not constitute a penal offence, under national or international law, at the time when it was committed. Nor shall a heavier penalty be imposed than the one that was applicable at the time the penal offence was committed.

Article 12.
No one shall be subjected to arbitrary interference with his privacy, family, home or correspondence, nor to attacks upon his honour and reputation. Everyone has the right to the protection of the law against such interference or attacks.

Article 13.
(1) Everyone has the right to freedom of movement and residence within the borders of each state.
(2) Everyone has the right to leave any country, including his own, and to return to his country.

Article 14.
(1) Everyone has the right to seek and to enjoy in other countries asylum from persecution.
(2) This right may not be invoked in the case of prosecutions genuinely arising from non-political crimes or from acts contrary to the purposes and principles of the United Nations.

Article 15.
(1) Everyone has the right to a nationality.
(2) No one shall be arbitrarily deprived of his nationality nor denied the right to change his nationality.

Article 16.
(1) Men and women of full age, without any limitation due to race, nationality or religion, have the right to marry and to found a family. They are entitled to equal rights as to marriage, during marriage and at its dissolution.
(2) Marriage shall be entered into only with the free and full consent of the intending spouses.
(3) The family is the natural and fundamental group unit of society and is entitled to protection by society and the State.

Article 17.
(1) Everyone has the right to own property alone as well as in association with others.
(2) No one shall be arbitrarily deprived of his property.

Article 18.
Everyone has the right to freedom of thought, conscience and religion; this right includes freedom to change his religion or belief, and freedom, either alone or in community with others and in public or private, to manifest his religion or belief in teaching, practice, worship and observance.

Article 19.
Everyone has the right to freedom of opinion and expression; this right includes freedom to hold opinions without interference and to seek, receive and impart information and ideas through any media and regardless of frontiers.

Article 20.
(1) Everyone has the right to freedom of peaceful assembly and association.
(2) No one may be compelled to belong to an association.

Article 21.
(1) Everyone has the right to take part in the government of his country, directly or through freely chosen representatives.
(2) Everyone has the right of equal access to public service in his country.
(3) The will of the people shall be the basis of the authority of government; this will shall be expressed in periodic and genuine elections which shall be by universal and equal suffrage and shall be held by secret vote or by equivalent free voting procedures.

Article 22.
Everyone, as a member of society, has the right to social security and is entitled to realization, through national effort and international co-operation and in accordance with the organization and resources of each State, of the economic, social and cultural rights indispensable for his dignity and the free development of his personality.

Article 23.
(1) Everyone has the right to work, to free choice of employment, to just and favourable conditions of work and to protection against unemployment.
(2) Everyone, without any discrimination, has the right to equal pay for equal work.
(3) Everyone who works has the right to just and favourable remuneration ensuring for himself and his family an existence worthy of human dignity, and supplemented, if necessary, by other means of social protection.
(4) Everyone has the right to form and to join trade unions for the protection of his interests.

Article 24.
Everyone has the right to rest and leisure, including reasonable limitation of working hours and periodic holidays with pay.

Article 25.
(1) Everyone has the right to a standard of living adequate for the health and well-being of himself and of his family, including food, clothing, housing and medical care and necessary social services, and the right to security in the event of unemployment, sickness, disability, widowhood, old age or other lack of livelihood in circumstances beyond his control.
(2) Motherhood and childhood are entitled to special care and assistance. All children, whether born in or out of wedlock, shall enjoy the same social protection.

Article 26.
(1) Everyone has the right to education. Education shall be free, at least in the elementary and fundamental stages. Elementary education shall be compulsory. Technical and professional education shall be made generally available and higher education shall be equally accessible to all on the basis of merit.
(2) Education shall be directed to the full development of the human personality and to the strengthening of respect for human rights and fundamental freedoms. It shall promote understanding, tolerance and friendship among all nations, racial or religious groups, and shall further the activities of the United Nations for the maintenance of peace.
(3) Parents have a prior right to choose the kind of education that shall be given to their children.

Article 27.
(1) Everyone has the right freely to participate in the cultural life of the community, to enjoy the arts and to share in scientific advancement and its benefits.
(2) Everyone has the right to the protection of the moral and material interests resulting from any scientific, literary or artistic production of which he is the author.

Article 28.
Everyone is entitled to a social and international order in which the rights and freedoms set forth in this Declaration can be fully realized.

Article 29.
(1) Everyone has duties to the community in which alone the free and full development of his personality is possible.
(2) In the exercise of his rights and freedoms, everyone shall be subject only to such limitations as are determined by law solely for the purpose of securing due recognition and respect for the rights and freedoms of others and of meeting the just requirements of morality, public order and the general welfare in a democratic society.
(3) These rights and freedoms may in no case be exercised contrary to the purposes and principles of the United Nations.

Article 30.
Nothing in this Declaration may be interpreted as implying for any State, group or person any right to engage in any activity or to perform any act aimed at the destruction of any of the rights and freedoms set forth herein.

Sunday, March 4, 2007

Evil Teddy


my evil teddy bear. i stole it from my baby sister. haahahhaa...who's the evil one now teddy!

my baby sis ask me to take good care of her teddy. Ok! I will my cute Masniza!

this is me!


the above picture is me. it is I! guahahahhaha!

Saturday, March 3, 2007

mardi groi!


i went to mardi gras last nite...it was great but i step on piece of broken glass. then went to the midnihgt shift(masih berupaya) lepas ni pencenlah dgn bende2 mcm tu. heehehee. And a close friend of mine told me her secret. it was really nice of her too share it with me.

Friday, March 2, 2007

teach me..please

can someone out there be my teacher? i have to make a really good blog. u know, like how to put video, music, pictures and more into my blog. i promise, i'll be a good student. meowww...

how's your holiday kazar?

the most memorable thing that i've done during the holiday was, my trip to Kuching! meowww! i met a lot of my relatives there, even the ones that i never thought exist before. huahahahaa. my mistake for being so 'whatever' all the time. Uish, that have to change. then, i gain some kilos during the holiday. it hav its pros and cons. my jeans are all tight like wearing a bamboo stick now. 4 more kilos, and i'll be officially fat. Say NO to junk food!! hehehehhee.

Khalwat or close proximity

Sudah dinyatakan di dalam Al-Quran bahawa, mengintip orang lain adalah tidak dibenarkan dalam Islam kecuali mengintip musuh ketika perang. FULLSTOP. Kenapakah adanya 'mat skodeng' dan pihak-pihak JAWI yang menceroboh privacy orang lain dengan mengintip? Apa yang saya katakan ini bukanlah pemikiran moden tapi apa yang difirmankan di dalam Al-quran sudah jelas. Cubalah pihak JAWI berada di dalam kasut orang yang diintip kehidupan mereka. masyarakat akan hidup dalam ketakutan. Apakah perasaan mereka apabila dimalukan seperti itu? Tangkap Khalwat dalam Islam dibenarkan sekiranya TERserempak dan tidak berniat untuk mencari keaiban orang lain. Apakah tujuan pihak JAWI ke hotel2? sudah tentunya untuk membuka keaiban org lain. Bukankah ada firman Allah yang mengatakan bahawa sekiranya kita menutup keaiban saudara kita, keaiban kita pun akan ditutup di akhirat nanti. Banyak lagi masalah yang dihadapi masyarakat Islam di negara kita, contohnya di dalam bidang akademik anak2 Islam. Betul kata seorang mufti di Malaysia, penganut islam sekarang mempunyai sindrom pemikiran yang sempit. Contohnya isu khalwat ini. Rasanya, tidak banyak perubahan yang akan berlaku kepada penguatkuasaan bagaimana khalwat ini dijalankan kerana penganutnya sendiri menganggap agama Islam ini 'Rigid'. tak boleh ubah sebab benda ni dah jadi kebiasaan bagaimana ianya sepatut dijalankan sejak dulu lagi. well, i'll be happy if someone proves me wrong. here's are some dalil;

"O you who believe! avoid much suspicion; indeed some suspicion are sins, and spy not, neither backbite one another. Would one of you like to eat the flesh of his dead brother? You would hate it. And fear Allah.Verily, Allah is the One Who Forgives and accepts repentences Most Merciful."
al-Hujurat ayat 12

Ibn 'Umar narrated, "Allah's Messenger (peace be on him) mounted the pulpit and called out in a loud voice, O you who declare Islam with your tongues but whose hearts have not been reached by faith, do not annoy the Muslims nor seek out the* faults, for he who seeks out the faults of his brother Muslim will have his faults sought out by Allah, and when Allah seeks out someone's faults, He exposes them, even though he should be in the interior of his house. (Reported by al-Tirmidhi, and Ibn Majah has reported something similar.)

He who listens clandestinely to peoples' conversation against their wishes will have molten lead poured into his ears on the Day of Resurrection. (Reported by al-Bukhari and Muslim.)

my first opinion about racism.

ok..this issue is quite heavy for a beginner like me to talk about but i have been thinking quite a while about it. according to a scientific point of view which i read somewhere, racism came naturally among human. scientist conduct the test by having a group of people in a room with different races and measure their brainwave when they communicate with each other. the brainwave will become intense when they communicate with a person different from their own race, for example...caucasian-chinese, caucasian-african etc. Ok fine, it came naturally, no doubt about that. BUT, do we let ourself be that way in this ever globalising world. The answer is no! i encounter racism myself last year in Sydney. I saw this handicapped caucasian guy stumble himself just next to a road. so, as a good citizen(or in my case, a person with a student visa), i offer him some help. he refuse to let me help him because i'm asian. how cruel! God created all of us as equal and there's no such thing as a superior race. And God created different races so that we can learn from each other, not to discriminate. And thats why i'm here in Australia, to learn from the good Aussies. So what do u think?

ok...to get started

This is not my first blog. previously i have two blogs which is inactive because of my hectic life. i watch a tv show last week about how important blogging is. anyways, hello world! I'm kazar by the way. i'm from bintulu sarawak, malaysia. i'm a grown teenager with a lot of things in my mind that i just have to let it out and share with people who are reading my blog out there. post your comment(s) in my blog, whether you agree or disagree with my opinions, its up to you. its what freedom of speech is all about. But, of course there must come responsibility with it. And i must admit that i'm not a good writer though.