My honesty and Your honesty

ola people! i have been thinking about this for quite a while now. I think that i can be honest to someone else. But that honesty is not mutual. I keep on thinking that i must change myself. well, i believe the Golden rule and i tried to apply it everyday in my life. an example of honesty in my life that is not mutual is for example, if i say to a friend (they have to ask me first to give them my opinion) "oh that clothes doesnt suits u"...n when they say the same thing to me..i can feel the uneasiness inside of me.
But, i will ask someone if the things that i have said offends them in anyway, some of my friends say that my words are encouraging for them. i felt really honoured when theres anyone out there who really appreciate my honesty.
Sometime i cried when someone are being truly honest too me. i feel that they're playing with my self confidence big time. well depends, if they say like "banyaknye jerawat kat dahi kau tu"..i will seriously not get offended. But if they say things like "u can't do this, u can't do that, its wrong" and i know that they are just being honest...i will cry. i think what's wrong is me, not them. will they get offended if i say those things to them? maybe not. I havent reach that level where i can accept all of other people's opinion towards me.
So, whats next? well i have to say that i will have my limit in being honest. i will not lie. that is my principal. i will just say 'tak tau' and i know it will not happen overnight but i will try. and i will try to boost my friend's self confident by saying encouraging stuff like "u can do it! i know u". at the same time, i will try to accept more of other people's opinion towards me. how u might ask?..well i dont know..maybe u can give me ur opinion on how can i accept more of other people's crticsm on me.
i believe that human are not static, they can be better or worse, and i hope by changing this bad behaviour of mine i hope i can be a better person.


PS: No sarcasm involved in writing this article

this is me!

the above picture is me. it is I! guahahahhaha!

mardi groi!

i went to mardi gras last nite...it was great but i step on piece of broken glass. then went to the midnihgt shift(masih berupaya) lepas ni pencenlah dgn bende2 mcm tu. heehehee. And a close friend of mine told me her secret. it was really nice of her too share it with me.

teach me..please

can someone out there be my teacher? i have to make a really good blog. u know, like how to put video, music, pictures and more into my blog. i promise, i'll be a good student. meowww...

how's your holiday kazar?

the most memorable thing that i've done during the holiday was, my trip to Kuching! meowww! i met a lot of my relatives there, even the ones that i never thought exist before. huahahahaa. my mistake for being so 'whatever' all the time. Uish, that have to change. then, i gain some kilos during the holiday. it hav its pros and cons. my jeans are all tight like wearing a bamboo stick now. 4 more kilos, and i'll be officially fat. Say NO to junk food!! hehehehhee.

ok...to get started

This is not my first blog. previously i have two blogs which is inactive because of my hectic life. i watch a tv show last week about how important blogging is. anyways, hello world! I'm kazar by the way. i'm from bintulu sarawak, malaysia. i'm a grown teenager with a lot of things in my mind that i just have to let it out and share with people who are reading my blog out there. post your comment(s) in my blog, whether you agree or disagree with my opinions, its up to you. its what freedom of speech is all about. But, of course there must come responsibility with it. And i must admit that i'm not a good writer though.